You might have to wait a long time, sometimes years, but people will show you their good side. Just keep waiting, no matter how long it takes. NO ONE IS ALL EVIL, everyone has a good side...- Randy Pausch
03 August 2010
Be good at something, it makes you valuable
21 July 2010
Double trouble?!
As adviced, I want to write some things out of my head..
One of the most visual memories of my childhood was that I wasn't able to shower after P.E. but my mom couldn't write me a letter (because her Dutch isn't that good..) for school and at that time I didn't knew myself how to write shower in Dutch (douchen) so I asked my sister if she would be so kind to write it for me. And all she could scream at me was "why the hell should i write it for you, fuck off and write it yourself". So at the end of the day, ofcourse no letter and I had to shower after all..
This is a clear summary how my relation was with my sister and myself when we're younger. To be honest, I don't have a lot of memories of us together, because most of the time we just weren't together. In Dutch we have a saying "a apple doesnt fall far from its tree" but it seems that we're apple and pear. Im not sure what caused this difference, when we're younger I just kinda liked my own company. I'd hang out alot with my mom and dad, because yeah they kind awesome. But I never really hanged out with her..
When we grew older, she moved out of our parental house rather fast and I'd stayed with my parents. I sometimes feel that I had to, somebody have to help them with their administration and everything they didn't understand. It felt like my duty, because she wasn't there anymore to help out.
So she never really was my rolemodel to start with. I went to high-school, she chilled hardcore. I went to university she still chilled out. Somewhere along the road, our roles changed. I challenged myself to go to the fullest, she well.. she didnt.. And with pain in my heart I was only a witness of her life. I'm sure she isn't living the life she was expected to, but she is progressing I guess. She's almost 30, and I had so much more in mind for her. Like she says she isn't living her life for me, but all the expectations I ever had, where for her. And only for her, because why wouldn't you want the best for your own sibbling?
Everything I do, is because I don't want to end up like her.. Because I do want to achieve everything and then some.. Because I'm afraid, that when I'll look back I'll regret too much.. Because life is just too short to live one you don't like...
It's a sad story in the end, but I always have the feeling that time will learn and that even with time everything will land on its feets..
xoxo little J
One of the most visual memories of my childhood was that I wasn't able to shower after P.E. but my mom couldn't write me a letter (because her Dutch isn't that good..) for school and at that time I didn't knew myself how to write shower in Dutch (douchen) so I asked my sister if she would be so kind to write it for me. And all she could scream at me was "why the hell should i write it for you, fuck off and write it yourself". So at the end of the day, ofcourse no letter and I had to shower after all..
This is a clear summary how my relation was with my sister and myself when we're younger. To be honest, I don't have a lot of memories of us together, because most of the time we just weren't together. In Dutch we have a saying "a apple doesnt fall far from its tree" but it seems that we're apple and pear. Im not sure what caused this difference, when we're younger I just kinda liked my own company. I'd hang out alot with my mom and dad, because yeah they kind awesome. But I never really hanged out with her..
When we grew older, she moved out of our parental house rather fast and I'd stayed with my parents. I sometimes feel that I had to, somebody have to help them with their administration and everything they didn't understand. It felt like my duty, because she wasn't there anymore to help out.
So she never really was my rolemodel to start with. I went to high-school, she chilled hardcore. I went to university she still chilled out. Somewhere along the road, our roles changed. I challenged myself to go to the fullest, she well.. she didnt.. And with pain in my heart I was only a witness of her life. I'm sure she isn't living the life she was expected to, but she is progressing I guess. She's almost 30, and I had so much more in mind for her. Like she says she isn't living her life for me, but all the expectations I ever had, where for her. And only for her, because why wouldn't you want the best for your own sibbling?
Everything I do, is because I don't want to end up like her.. Because I do want to achieve everything and then some.. Because I'm afraid, that when I'll look back I'll regret too much.. Because life is just too short to live one you don't like...
It's a sad story in the end, but I always have the feeling that time will learn and that even with time everything will land on its feets..
xoxo little J
Focus
Do you ever have the feeling that life has something special for you, that you were meant for something bigger, that it is a fact rather then an opinion that you will make it in life?
Almost without shame, I can tell you that this comes to my mind almost everyday. Why would you be satisfied with ANYTHING less than the MOST you can achieve? Why would you be satisfied with the life you have now, while you can work harder to reach further, to achieve more.. At the same time I have to admit that this wasn't always the case for me. A couple of years, perhaps no more than two, I was walking trough life without a goal. I was having ideas in my mind about what I wanted from life, but things just didn't worked out the way I wanted it to. I was wining and complaining, not in public or something - just inside my mind, why didn't the international ambition that I had (and have) represent my actual life?
But then it just struck me in the face, it has no friggin use to just focuss your mind on all the things you don't have. Nothing is gonna change by it. The only thing you should take out from it, is WHAT DO YOU WANT? Towards what goal do you wanna work, and with work I mean work hard. If you wanna get eveyrthing out of life you have to chase opportunities, they won't just ring the door and present themself! People won't notice you, when you're just sitting on the beach wasting money on stupidity and complaining about your life. When you're out in the world, life itself combined with ambition and perseverance then and ONLY then, opportunities will come down into your life like rain onto Dutch surface..
At this moment in life, I'm so focused. I have to admit, then almost every day I picture another future for myself, but I'm focused because I know, one day, one day ahead a special thing will arise in my life just because I worked my ass off for it because I want to make something awesome with my life. e
Your life start with everything between your own ears. You have so much controll on your own life so just stop complaining if your life isn't working out at the moment, DO something about it..
xoxo J
Almost without shame, I can tell you that this comes to my mind almost everyday. Why would you be satisfied with ANYTHING less than the MOST you can achieve? Why would you be satisfied with the life you have now, while you can work harder to reach further, to achieve more.. At the same time I have to admit that this wasn't always the case for me. A couple of years, perhaps no more than two, I was walking trough life without a goal. I was having ideas in my mind about what I wanted from life, but things just didn't worked out the way I wanted it to. I was wining and complaining, not in public or something - just inside my mind, why didn't the international ambition that I had (and have) represent my actual life?
But then it just struck me in the face, it has no friggin use to just focuss your mind on all the things you don't have. Nothing is gonna change by it. The only thing you should take out from it, is WHAT DO YOU WANT? Towards what goal do you wanna work, and with work I mean work hard. If you wanna get eveyrthing out of life you have to chase opportunities, they won't just ring the door and present themself! People won't notice you, when you're just sitting on the beach wasting money on stupidity and complaining about your life. When you're out in the world, life itself combined with ambition and perseverance then and ONLY then, opportunities will come down into your life like rain onto Dutch surface..
At this moment in life, I'm so focused. I have to admit, then almost every day I picture another future for myself, but I'm focused because I know, one day, one day ahead a special thing will arise in my life just because I worked my ass off for it because I want to make something awesome with my life. e
Your life start with everything between your own ears. You have so much controll on your own life so just stop complaining if your life isn't working out at the moment, DO something about it..
xoxo J
26 June 2010
Negative people..
Everybody knows this person who is ALWAYS negative.. And most people just try to avoid those people, because all the actually do is suck out your energy and what do you get back? Nothing.. But what to do when avoiding is not an option because they are related or an attachment to somebody who is a nice, bubbly and positive?
Im not trying to say that Im little miss sunshine 24/7. But there is an Dutch saying which states "you'll catch more with honey than with vinegar". Ill try to treat everybody the same manner I would like to be treat. I life by the idea that a smile is for free and negative leads to nothing (well mots probably to more negativity) while being positive provides you with so much more!!
I'm always astonished by those people who really believe in the idea that when they need somebody's service or time, it will be helpfull to scream at them to get them to do want you want. Would you do that to? Most employees have enough power to actually refuse helping you just on the idea that they don't like you but that also means that they WILL help you when you just put that extra smile on your face, wish them a great day at work and compliment them on their provided service. You would like to be treat the same right?!
But so what to do with those people who you cant just eliminate? Are you expected to put on your happy face even when you know beforehand you will get a shitty reaction anyway? Do you convince them with your life philosophy? Or will you in the end, consequently say,untill here and no further..
May time learn me the answer on this one!!
xoxo
Im not trying to say that Im little miss sunshine 24/7. But there is an Dutch saying which states "you'll catch more with honey than with vinegar". Ill try to treat everybody the same manner I would like to be treat. I life by the idea that a smile is for free and negative leads to nothing (well mots probably to more negativity) while being positive provides you with so much more!!
I'm always astonished by those people who really believe in the idea that when they need somebody's service or time, it will be helpfull to scream at them to get them to do want you want. Would you do that to? Most employees have enough power to actually refuse helping you just on the idea that they don't like you but that also means that they WILL help you when you just put that extra smile on your face, wish them a great day at work and compliment them on their provided service. You would like to be treat the same right?!
But so what to do with those people who you cant just eliminate? Are you expected to put on your happy face even when you know beforehand you will get a shitty reaction anyway? Do you convince them with your life philosophy? Or will you in the end, consequently say,untill here and no further..
May time learn me the answer on this one!!
xoxo
13 June 2010
And yes Lady Gaga is a devilworshipper...
My last blog about the subject (What the hell? Jay-Z a devil worshipper?!?!?! ) keeps being read, so I guess there are more out there whom are curious towards the subject.
After watching Lady Gaga's latest video Alejandro I really asked myself, is it me, or does everybody think that this video is highly inappropriate? Though, I really believe that Gaga is a visioner pur sang, but whatsup with all the blasphemy?!?!
Okay first things first, I always tend to wanna write down everything that comes up to mind, which often make my blogs very ramble.. I shall try to make this one a bit more structured (if possible).. And I shall try to narrow it down to only Gaga's
Gaga: whatup with the covering your eye? Is it sore? Do you see better while covering one up? Or might it be more a one-eye-of-horus thing?? To follow up: Christina Aguilera, you're kinda epic. Been in the industry for a while, seems forever, WHY THE HELL are you copy+pasting lady gaga? Did you made a deal aswell to remain your succes? Because the C around your eye is REALLY kinda obvious.. I meand, you could have done it in front of your mouth/nose/boob.. Why are you doing it the exact same manner as Gaga?
Back to Gaga, whatsup with the upside down cross on your cross aka pussy? Well it's kinda whats up with the WHOLE alejandro video? Its about a boy right? Whats with the hitler kind of army? There is some hot studd looking hawt but well is he alejandro? Is he there to save you frmo the devil, the whole clip just DOESNT make sense to me at all? Why is it sooo dripped into religiousness.. And with religious I do not mean jesus christ super star.. I mean Lucifer, aka Jay-Z's pall..
There's more.. Whatsup with the muppets strings? They always say that the Devil uses people as muppets to fulfill his assignments, well kinda obvious as well Gaga. Is it some kinda of metaphor for being mind controlled?? Whatsup with the coffin? Is it burrying the "old-sacret" you, and here you are new mind controlled super power gaga?
It is all so obvious, even for the naked eye (is that a term in English, well it is in Dutch ahaha), that it makes me think Gaga, are you doing this just to provoke or are you doing this as a real tribute to the black force? Is alejandro just a synonym for Lucifer? Especially when you sing "Stop, please let me go" in a nun outfit, makes me really wonder are you a prisonner of the evil, do you wanna set free to the light, but you're to hooked up to the fame?
What do you think about it? I think that EVERY ONE who have seen the clip have to admit that it is kinda disturbing (especially the sufficating sex part..), and that you at least wonder who ROBERTO is.. Kinda weird to sing about a guy calles Alejandro and all of a sudden trow another name in the game..
There are even some youtube video's where some artist discuss/explain a bit more about the industry (most of them are so-called "has-been", but are they really? or does a 'higher' power has something to say about that BECAUSE they opened up?!). It is hard to make a difference between: are they really talking about the Devil an sich or are they using the devil as a metaphor to emphasize their point?
source: http://vigilantcitizen.com/
till the next one!
X J
After watching Lady Gaga's latest video Alejandro I really asked myself, is it me, or does everybody think that this video is highly inappropriate? Though, I really believe that Gaga is a visioner pur sang, but whatsup with all the blasphemy?!?!
Okay first things first, I always tend to wanna write down everything that comes up to mind, which often make my blogs very ramble.. I shall try to make this one a bit more structured (if possible).. And I shall try to narrow it down to only Gaga's
Gaga: whatup with the covering your eye? Is it sore? Do you see better while covering one up? Or might it be more a one-eye-of-horus thing?? To follow up: Christina Aguilera, you're kinda epic. Been in the industry for a while, seems forever, WHY THE HELL are you copy+pasting lady gaga? Did you made a deal aswell to remain your succes? Because the C around your eye is REALLY kinda obvious.. I meand, you could have done it in front of your mouth/nose/boob.. Why are you doing it the exact same manner as Gaga?
Back to Gaga, whatsup with the upside down cross on your cross aka pussy? Well it's kinda whats up with the WHOLE alejandro video? Its about a boy right? Whats with the hitler kind of army? There is some hot studd looking hawt but well is he alejandro? Is he there to save you frmo the devil, the whole clip just DOESNT make sense to me at all? Why is it sooo dripped into religiousness.. And with religious I do not mean jesus christ super star.. I mean Lucifer, aka Jay-Z's pall..
There's more.. Whatsup with the muppets strings? They always say that the Devil uses people as muppets to fulfill his assignments, well kinda obvious as well Gaga. Is it some kinda of metaphor for being mind controlled?? Whatsup with the coffin? Is it burrying the "old-sacret" you, and here you are new mind controlled super power gaga?
It is all so obvious, even for the naked eye (is that a term in English, well it is in Dutch ahaha), that it makes me think Gaga, are you doing this just to provoke or are you doing this as a real tribute to the black force? Is alejandro just a synonym for Lucifer? Especially when you sing "Stop, please let me go" in a nun outfit, makes me really wonder are you a prisonner of the evil, do you wanna set free to the light, but you're to hooked up to the fame?
What do you think about it? I think that EVERY ONE who have seen the clip have to admit that it is kinda disturbing (especially the sufficating sex part..), and that you at least wonder who ROBERTO is.. Kinda weird to sing about a guy calles Alejandro and all of a sudden trow another name in the game..
There are even some youtube video's where some artist discuss/explain a bit more about the industry (most of them are so-called "has-been", but are they really? or does a 'higher' power has something to say about that BECAUSE they opened up?!). It is hard to make a difference between: are they really talking about the Devil an sich or are they using the devil as a metaphor to emphasize their point?
source: http://vigilantcitizen.com/
till the next one!
X J
FTW
Dear readers,
I really should post some more when I killed all my exams..
But for now some links of my new favorite sites!
http://www.deargirlsaboveme.com/
Some random dude who lives below 2 loud girls, whom he secretely has a crush on.. He write little letters/tweets to them and they hella funny!
http://notalwaysright.com/
As non-americain, you always have sum preconceived opinion about americains (they are fat, stupid, etc. ahaha Im sorry when you feel violated, they are preconveived opinions after all..), this site gives funny anekdotes about employees and interaction with either angry or just plain ass stupid customers..
http://colormekatie.blogspot.com/
Katie is probably the cutest/prettiest/sweetest little thing I have ever seen on blogspot! She is probably the most positive girl in NY and makes pretty pictures/crafts about her life.. Do you remember my blog about those people who went on the subway without a pants? Well, Katie belongs to that organisation! Cutest thing!
http://fashionhippieloves.blogspot.com/
Annie's blog really made me wish I paid a bit more attention during German class. I think she has one of the best fashion blogs without using high-end pieces. Most of her wardrobe even comes from Primark, Zara and H&M!! But she really knows how to pull it off and she has great legs.
Last but certainly not least
http://www.life-in-travel.blogspot.com/
A beautifull woman, with 2 beautiful kids and the best? A beautifull designer wardrobe!!!
Till we meet again.
X J
I really should post some more when I killed all my exams..
But for now some links of my new favorite sites!
http://www.deargirlsaboveme.com/
Some random dude who lives below 2 loud girls, whom he secretely has a crush on.. He write little letters/tweets to them and they hella funny!
http://notalwaysright.com/
As non-americain, you always have sum preconceived opinion about americains (they are fat, stupid, etc. ahaha Im sorry when you feel violated, they are preconveived opinions after all..), this site gives funny anekdotes about employees and interaction with either angry or just plain ass stupid customers..
http://colormekatie.blogspot.com/
Katie is probably the cutest/prettiest/sweetest little thing I have ever seen on blogspot! She is probably the most positive girl in NY and makes pretty pictures/crafts about her life.. Do you remember my blog about those people who went on the subway without a pants? Well, Katie belongs to that organisation! Cutest thing!
http://fashionhippieloves.blogspot.com/
Annie's blog really made me wish I paid a bit more attention during German class. I think she has one of the best fashion blogs without using high-end pieces. Most of her wardrobe even comes from Primark, Zara and H&M!! But she really knows how to pull it off and she has great legs.
Last but certainly not least
http://www.life-in-travel.blogspot.com/
A beautifull woman, with 2 beautiful kids and the best? A beautifull designer wardrobe!!!
Till we meet again.
X J
23 April 2010
20 April 2010
19 April 2010
My. Heart. Melted.
OMG, this guy's voice mademy heart MELT... Sam Tsui is soooo friggin talented.. Really Really wish I was blessed with a beautifull voice.. Yeah effingg hell, it seems that I was only blessed with the gift of shopping..
xoxo little J
07 April 2010
Wait, wait, wait a little longer..
The real world is hitting me in the face!! Have to admit the whole blogging thing is really getting a non-substantional role in the universe of Janet.. And I honestly don't understand how people blog while living their life.. I mean, it's either to party or to blog about parties..
But don't get me wrong I LOVE blogs and the people who write them.. But I just seem not to be able to combine living my life and blog about it.. At least at this point..
I have to learn French, I have to teach (2nd year undergrad students), I have to study for my last 2 exams, I have to finish my internship paper, I have to plan a professor of the year award, I have to work a bit, and ofcourse I have to enjoy the good life!
So where's time left for blogging?? I tried to make pictures of my outfit of the day, but I really don't understand who makes the pictures of all those girls blogging.. Like ont he street, on the beach etc. Because Most of the time, when Im bored like that, nobody's around me to make pictures of me like that :(
AND to top it all up. I DONT HAVE A BLACKBERRY anymore :( It kinda died on me and now I have to wait for 14 workingdays (that's more or less a month...) before it's fixed.. I really hope tho that theyll give me a brand new one.. And I miss internet on my phone!! That was theonly manner how I checked up with all your blogs!! *sigh*
So for now.. Just wait...
xoxo little J
But don't get me wrong I LOVE blogs and the people who write them.. But I just seem not to be able to combine living my life and blog about it.. At least at this point..
I have to learn French, I have to teach (2nd year undergrad students), I have to study for my last 2 exams, I have to finish my internship paper, I have to plan a professor of the year award, I have to work a bit, and ofcourse I have to enjoy the good life!
So where's time left for blogging?? I tried to make pictures of my outfit of the day, but I really don't understand who makes the pictures of all those girls blogging.. Like ont he street, on the beach etc. Because Most of the time, when Im bored like that, nobody's around me to make pictures of me like that :(
AND to top it all up. I DONT HAVE A BLACKBERRY anymore :( It kinda died on me and now I have to wait for 14 workingdays (that's more or less a month...) before it's fixed.. I really hope tho that theyll give me a brand new one.. And I miss internet on my phone!! That was theonly manner how I checked up with all your blogs!! *sigh*
So for now.. Just wait...
xoxo little J
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